I am starting to like him but I don’t wanna. 

I know that this shouldn’t be happening. I don’t wanna fall for him. It’s not that there is something wrong with him. It’s just that he is not my type.

Actually, I perfectly know what is happening here. You see, it has been a really long time since I had been with someone. For almost five years I had been on my own. And because of that, I think it’s easy for me to fall for someone who will show the slightest care and affection. How pathetic of me.

Anyway, since we have the same schedule I have no excuse of not seeing him. And because we also have some common friends I have no excuse of not talking to him, either. 

I really do not know what to do here. I am thinking of just acting as if I do not feel anything special for him. That maybe if I just get used to his company the feeling will just subside and he will stay in the friend zone forever. But I am also thinking that a lot is at stake if I do that. You know, there is a possibility that if I just continue to be near him, to just get used to his company, I might just fall even more. 

What to do, what to do, what to do? 

THIS is really freaking me out!